{"id":327,"date":"2025-01-09T11:44:14","date_gmt":"2025-01-09T11:44:14","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/onurcaymaz.com\/?p=327"},"modified":"2025-01-09T11:58:51","modified_gmt":"2025-01-09T11:58:51","slug":"selim-ilerinin-daktilosu","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/onurcaymaz.com\/index.php\/2025\/01\/09\/selim-ilerinin-daktilosu\/","title":{"rendered":"Selim \u0130leri’nin Daktilosu"},"content":{"rendered":"\n

A: <\/strong>A harfiyle ba\u015flar. Doksan\u0131n\u0131 a\u015fk\u0131n bir daktilodur, gecelerce siyah\u2026 Son \u015feridi de bitti\u011finde yenisini sat\u0131n alabilece\u011fi yer bulamazsa kullanmayacak. Kal\u0131verecek \u00f6yle, kaza ge\u00e7irmi\u015f dost\u2026 \u0130kinci harfi Z. \u0130lk harfle, son harf; iki tu\u015f aras\u0131nda hayat\u2026Yaz\u0131n\u0131n orta yerinde\u2026 <\/p>\n\n\n\n

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B: <\/strong>Beylikd\u00fcz\u00fc Kitap Fuar\u0131. Tesad\u00fcfen tan\u0131\u015fma. Kadife ceket\u2026 \u0130mza isteyen okurlar\u0131yla aya\u011fa kalk\u0131p tokala\u015fan yazar\u2026 2001 Kas\u0131m. Y\u0131llar\u0131n ge\u00e7i\u015fini en iyi kim bilir? Bir masa \u00f6rt\u00fcs\u00fcnde bulu\u015fman\u0131n zaman\u0131, \u00e7i\u00e7ek adlar\u0131n\u0131, sokaklar\u0131, mevsimlerin de\u011fi\u015fen \u0131\u015f\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131\u2026 Zaman\u0131n insanlar\u0131 s\u00fcr\u00fckledi\u011fi yeri en \u00e7ok kim bilir? <\/p>\n\n\n\n

C: <\/strong>Tekrara ruh \u00fcflemi\u015f, rak\u0131 i\u00e7erken kahverengi\u2026 <\/p>\n\n\n\n

D: Dostluklar\u0131n Son G\u00fcn\u00fc.<\/em><\/strong> \u0130lk bas\u0131m\u0131n\u0131n kapa\u011f\u0131nda Bir Demet Menek\u015fe<\/em><\/strong> mi vard\u0131, gelincik mi? Bilgi Yay\u0131nevi basm\u0131\u015f. \u00c7ok sonra okudum. Yurdanur ile Kemal\u2019in a\u015fk\u0131. Mecnunu \u00c7ok Da\u011flar<\/em><\/strong>. Yurdanur\u2019un d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc, Kemal\u2019in ceketinin ucuna takt\u0131\u011f\u0131 gelin teli, sevgiliden yadig\u00e2r\u2026 A\u015fkla arkada\u015fl\u0131klar diye yazm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Hat\u0131rlar\u0131m. Komparsita \u00e7alar ans\u0131z\u0131n. Ans\u0131z\u0131n dersem, hem an, hem s\u0131z\u0131n\u2026 K\u00fcl hepsi. A\u015fkla arkada\u015fl\u0131klar\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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E: <\/strong>Sigaray\u0131 sigaradan yakar. K\u0131\u015flar\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr. Sokaklarda birikmi\u015f kar\u0131n \u00fczerine pencerelerden vuran televizyon \u0131\u015f\u0131klar\u0131. Sesler de y\u00fczler gibi dokunup ge\u00e7er. Parmaklar\u0131 ince uzun\u2026 Eli titremez. Ben g\u00f6rmedim ya da\u2026 Acelesi yok. Yaln\u0131zl\u0131klar yine de. \u0130lle yaln\u0131zl\u0131klar. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

F: <\/strong>Unutulmu\u015f romanlar\u0131 o bilir, yazarlar\u0131. Baz\u0131 gece taksilerinin pencerelerinden ak\u0131p giden sokaklar. Bir sigara daha. Aynalardan yans\u0131yan gece lokantalar\u0131, plakta tango, otel kap\u0131lar\u0131\u2026 Baz\u0131 tren yolculuklar\u0131. Haydarpa\u015fa, gar meyhanesi, Eski\u015fehir Gar\u0131 yolun sonu. Dostoyevski\u2019nin romanlar\u0131 h\u00e2l\u00e2 ya\u015f\u0131yor diye m\u0131r\u0131ldand\u0131, kar ya\u011f\u0131yordu, tuvalet\u00e7iyle konu\u015fuyordum. Adam bozuk paralar\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnde uyukluyordu. Gece \u00fc\u00e7t\u00fc, en k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck g\u00fcr\u00fclt\u00fcde titreyerek uyan\u0131yordu, ellerinin \u00fczerinde k\u0131llar; y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn sar\u0131s\u0131, g\u00f6zlerine yap\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015f kaskat\u0131 uykusuzluk. Trene binecektik yazar kafilesiyle. Yazarlar kafileydi; beride insanlar. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

G:<\/strong> O pencerenin \u00f6n\u00fcnde, ceviz a\u011fac\u0131ndan masa ba\u015f\u0131nda, k\u00fcll\u00fck, sigara, \u00e7akmak. Neler g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f g\u00f6zl\u00fck, votka barda\u011f\u0131\u2026 Sen iyi \u00e7ocuksun, \u00fcz\u00fclme, demi\u015fti. Radyo \u00e7al\u0131yordu. Mutfakta, apartman aral\u0131\u011f\u0131na bakan pencerenin \u00f6n\u00fcnde porselen melek. Babam\u0131n \u00f6ld\u00fc\u011f\u00fc g\u00fcn\u2026 Melekler k\u0131r\u0131l\u0131r. Perisi Ka\u00e7m\u0131\u015f Yaz\u0131lar <\/em><\/strong>diye deneme kitab\u0131. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

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H: Her Gece Bodrum.<\/em><\/strong> Bir usta, Attil\u00e2 \u0130lhan. Bir gen\u00e7, \u0130leri. Nas\u0131l bitiyordu roman. \u201cYeniden d\u00f6nsek. Deniz bizi bekler mi?\u201d Yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n kitab\u0131. Ona kader bi\u00e7ti\u011fini s\u00f6ylemi\u015fti bu kitab\u0131n. Hayat\u0131n ortas\u0131na devrilip duran sayfalar. Bir pazar kahvalt\u0131s\u0131nda, \u00c7engelk\u00f6y\u2019de masan\u0131n \u00fczerinde duruyor Her Gece Bodrum. \u0130lk bask\u0131. Hep ilk bask\u0131. Ne var ki, nedir bunca uzaktan b\u00f6yle bitik zamanlara ta\u015f\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z. Mutsuzluk okulunda bayrak t\u00f6reni, Yas Tatili\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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I: <\/strong>Baz\u0131 ya\u011fmurlu gecelerde, sarho\u015fken, biraz sarsakken, telefon kul\u00fcbeleri an\u0131msar\u0131m. Tekme tokat bordolar, mor ba\u015f d\u00f6nmeleri. Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 Edirne\u2019de bir kahvenin cam\u0131na dayay\u0131p nehre bakm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Bu nehir demi\u015ftim, ba\u015fka nehrin gen\u00e7li\u011fi olabilir\u2026. Kul\u00fcbeye gir, telefonu kald\u0131r\u2026 \u00c7evir numaray\u0131. Kim aranacak? Kim kald\u0131? Birka\u00e7 kelime. \u00d6l\u00fcmler, ayr\u0131l\u0131klar\u2026\u201c\u00d6l\u00fcm, ayr\u0131l\u0131k, insanlar\u0131n birbirlerine bir daha el sallayamamas\u0131d\u0131r\u201d demi\u015fti. Hemen sonra geri d\u00f6n\u00fcp cam\u0131n d\u0131\u015f\u0131ndaki ya\u011fmura bak, ellerini palto cebine saklay\u0131p \u00e7ekil. Hayata bak.

J:<\/strong> \u0130nsan olan yan\u0131m\u0131z. Denizlere \u00e2\u015f\u0131kt\u0131r. Salatay\u0131 bol rokal\u0131 sever. Ge\u00e7mi\u015fin sofralar\u0131n\u0131 anlatt\u0131\u011f\u0131 an\u0131 kitaplar\u0131. \u201cAn\u0131lar, an\u0131lar, an\u0131lar \/ Sanki hepsi bir kelime\u201d diyen Edip Cansever dizesi. \u00d6zlenilmi\u015f, unutulmu\u015f kimi insanlar. \u0130ncila Abla, Handan, Elem\u2026

K:<\/strong> Edebiyat dergilerinde, sararm\u0131\u015f sayfalardan, izini s\u00fcrmek. Ge\u00e7mi\u015f, ge\u00e7ip gitmi\u015ftir ger\u00e7ekten. Hangi roman\u0131nda, kim kimdi acaba diye meraklanan okur hevesi, \u015fu sokaklar\u0131n birinden k\u00f6\u015feyi d\u00f6nsem, kar\u015f\u0131ma \u00e7\u0131kar m\u0131 birinden biri, Yakup\u2019a gitsek bulur muyuz Cehennem Krali\u00e7esi<\/em><\/strong>\u2019ni, Samatya\u2019da bir avluda kim oturmakta; K\u0131r\u0131k Bir A\u015fk Hik\u00e2yesi\u2019<\/em><\/strong>ndeki H\u00fcmeyra ne yap\u0131yor \u015fimdi? Mutluluk ger\u00e7ekten yan\u0131m\u0131zdan ge\u00e7ip gitti mi? <\/p>\n\n\n\n

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L: <\/strong>Cam kesi\u011fi yaz\u0131lar. Ne diyorduk, sorgusuz, sualsiz, yalans\u0131z. Tekrar: Kim ama, kim kald\u0131 ki?

M:<\/strong> \u015ei\u015fli\u2019nin han\u0131mefendi bah\u00e7eleri, yosma kediler, ya\u015fl\u0131 ama yak\u0131\u015f\u0131kl\u0131 balkonlar. Ak\u015famlar\u0131 \u00f6rt\u00fclen perdeler. Sigara. \u201cHadi ben \u00e7ok sigara, geceleri \u00f6ks\u00fcr\u00fck\u201d dizesi Necatigil\u2019den. Eski Toprak<\/em><\/strong> – Beh\u00e7et Bey\u2019in. \u00d6l\u00fc erkek yazarlar\u0131 hep \u201cbey\u201d diye hat\u0131rlar. Eski topra\u011fa ektiklerim yadig\u00e2r olsun yaz\u0131p imzalam\u0131\u015f \u015fair yirmi yedi ya\u015f\u0131na. Bir \u015feyler yadig\u00e2r kalacak m\u0131 bizden de\u2026 Ba\u015fkalar\u0131na. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

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N: <\/strong>\u00d6yledir. Geriye kalan sadece tortu. Telefon defteri var m\u0131 mesela, y\u0131llardan kalan. Kenarlar\u0131na k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck notlar alm\u0131\u015f m\u0131? Ye\u015fil m\u00fcrekkepli kalemleri sever mi? Bo\u015f k\u00e2\u011f\u0131tlar, \u00f6l\u00fc \u00e7ama\u015f\u0131rlara benzer mi? Yazarken her \u015feyden soyunmak, yazd\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 giymek\u2026 K\u0131r\u0131k Deniz Kabuklar\u0131\u2019nda ge\u00e7erdi, \u201cf\u0131rt\u0131nal\u0131, ya\u011fmurlu, kas\u0131rgal\u0131\u201d gece. Geceler hep \u00f6yle mi?

O: <\/strong>Bir hik\u00e2ye: Bi\u2019keman. <\/em><\/strong>\u0130lk hik\u00e2yelerinden. Bir yer: Kuzguncuk. Cumartesi ak\u015fam\u0131, bakkaldan votka ald\u0131k. Artin Demirci\u2019nin evinin bah\u00e7esinde. Cumartesi ak\u015famlar\u0131n\u0131n kimi semtlerde h\u00fczn\u00fc ayr\u0131. Ak\u015fam\u00fcstleri elinde limonlu votkas\u0131. Hat\u0131rl\u0131yor mudur? Demirci\u2019nin bah\u00e7esinde ne g\u00fczel \u015feyler konu\u015fulmu\u015f bir ak\u015famd\u0131\u2026 <\/p>\n\n\n\n

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\u00d6:<\/strong> \u00c7antas\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7ok sever, derisi y\u0131pranm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r, y\u0131llar \u00e7izik \u00e7izik etmi\u015ftir ama olsun. Sevmek b\u00f6yle zaten. \u0130\u00e7inde ila\u00e7lar, kalemler, biletler, not par\u00e7ac\u0131klar\u0131. An\u0131 iskeletleri yaz\u0131yordu Bu Yaz Ayr\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n \u0130lk Yaz\u0131 Olacak<\/em><\/strong>\u2019ta. \u201cBir can\u0131na k\u0131ym\u0131\u015f sizi takip edebilir\u201d\u2026 Yazlar ve ayr\u0131l\u0131klar. \u201cBir kad\u0131n sana el sall\u0131yordu. Manolya a\u011fac\u0131 ya\u015flanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\u201d
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P: <\/strong>Nedense yazd\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 okurken hep ilkyaz. \u0130li\u015fkilerde hep Kapal\u0131 \u0130ktisat<\/em><\/strong>, hep. Bir Denizin Eteklerinde<\/em><\/strong> durup dinleniyoruz. Kad\u0131k\u00f6y de\u011fil, Kad\u0131k\u00f6y\u00fc yazar. Kesinkes de\u011fil de kesenkes; Kemal Tahir\u2019e bu yolla belki selam. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

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R: <\/strong>Renk adlar\u0131. Unutulan ne varsa bilir. Y\u00fcz\u00fcndeki \u00f6p\u00fc\u015fleri ge\u00e7mi\u015f yaralar\u0131n izleri olarak saklay\u0131p giden anneler, konu\u015fulamam\u0131\u015f babalar, uzak sevgiler. Kim kald\u0131?

S:<\/strong> Seni \u00c7ok \u00d6zledim.<\/em><\/strong> \u0130zmir\u2019de, sahafta buldum, g\u00fcnl\u00fck. Benim do\u011fdu\u011fum y\u0131l\u0131n yaz sonu, d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc\u011f\u00fc notta, bir yaln\u0131zl\u0131k ak\u015fam\u0131nda kimseyi bulamad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 yazm\u0131\u015f. Telefon defterinden kimi se\u00e7erse se\u00e7sin, hi\u00e7 kimse yokmu\u015f arad\u0131\u011f\u0131 yerlerde. Tam benim do\u011fdu\u011fum y\u0131l, tam benim \u015fimdiki ya\u015f\u0131mda\u2026 Kimse yok h\u00e2l\u00e2\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u015e: Evlerde Sevgi Yoktu. <\/em><\/strong>Sevdi\u011fi bir kitap ad\u0131\u2026 Hi\u00e7bir evde\u2026 Hi\u00e7bir zaman. Sadece kitaplar, solgun kapaklar\u0131 onlar\u0131n, bazen arka kapakta bir yazar foto\u011fraf\u0131, bazen yaz\u0131m yanl\u0131\u015flar\u0131, sararm\u0131\u015f sayfalarda kimi zaman ba\u015fkalar\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7izdi\u011fi sat\u0131rlar. Kitaplar, filmler, \u015fark\u0131lar zaten, gerisi k\u00f6r karanl\u0131k, gerisi sa\u011f\u0131r ses: Ge\u00e7en Yaz Birdenbire<\/em><\/strong>, Elmalar K\u0131zar\u0131rken, So\u011fuktu ve Ya\u011fmur \u00c7iseliyordu, Mehtapl\u0131 Gecelerde\u2026 <\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

T:<\/strong> <\/p>\n\n\n\n

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U:<\/strong> Bir harfi b\u0131rakt\u0131m beride. Unuttum. Kim bilir ka\u00e7 y\u0131l, kimlere yolda\u015f oldu yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131 o harf, ka\u00e7 bas\u0131l\u0131 sayfada? Ka\u00e7 harfle arkada\u015f oldu, ka\u00e7 kelimeyle? Ka\u00e7 c\u00fcmleyi \u00e7ok sevdi? Ka\u00e7\u0131ndan \u00e7ekindi yazarken. Eksikli\u011fin yazar\u0131 \u0130leri. Ya\u015farken daktilosunu yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131m ilk yazar. Bir harfi eksik kalacak burada da. Hayat gibi. Hayatta da hi\u00e7bir \u015fey tamam de\u011fil ki\u2026

V:<\/strong> Sanki hep bir otel tabelas\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131nda, s\u0131r\u0131ls\u0131klam ya\u011fmurda durdu. Orada ya\u015fad\u0131. Orada ya\u015fland\u0131. Gelip ge\u00e7en yolculara bakt\u0131 oradan. Hepsini bildi.

Y:<\/strong> Selim \u0130leri, yazarlar i\u00e7inde yazar. \u0130nsanlar i\u00e7inde insan. Bug\u00fcn T\u00fcrk\u00e7ede bir duyarl\u0131ktan bahsedilecekse, illa ki k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131s\u0131 u\u00e7up gitmi\u015f \u00e7i\u00e7ekleri anlatan Selim \u0130leri duyarl\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131 var. Sadece Mavi Kanatlar\u0131nla Yaln\u0131z Benim Olsayd\u0131n<\/em><\/strong>\u2019\u0131n son sayfas\u0131 i\u00e7in bile var! Ne denir? B\u00f6ylesine ac\u0131mas\u0131z, bunca g\u00fczel sat\u0131r kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda ne denebilir? <\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Z:<\/strong> \u201cKaybettikten sonra buldu\u011fumuz o \u015fey nedir. Nedir o bil\u2026 Nedir?\u201d B\u00f6yle demi\u015fti Sait Faik. Yineleyece\u011fim ama olsun: T\u00fcm bunlar\u0131 konu\u015fabilecek, bunlarla h\u00fcz\u00fcnlenebilecek kim ama kim kald\u0131 ki\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Yaz\u0131, Caymaz’\u0131n S\u00f6yle Juliet Sana Ne Yapt\u0131m<\/strong> adl\u0131 kitab\u0131ndan al\u0131nt\u0131d\u0131r.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

A: A harfiyle ba\u015flar. Doksan\u0131n\u0131 a\u015fk\u0131n bir daktilodur, gecelerce siyah\u2026 Son \u015feridi de bitti\u011finde yenisini sat\u0131n alabilece\u011fi yer bulamazsa kullanmayacak. Kal\u0131verecek \u00f6yle, kaza ge\u00e7irmi\u015f dost\u2026 […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2929,"featured_media":344,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[52,144,146,145,139,133,47,138,141,142,50,140,148,135,59,66,61,143,136,147,17],"class_list":["post-327","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-bazi-seyler","tag-attila-ilhan","tag-bikeman","tag-bir-denizin-eteklerinde","tag-bu-yaz-ayriligin-ilk-yazi-olacak","tag-cehennem-kralicesi","tag-dostluklarin-son-gunu","tag-edip-cansever","tag-her-gece-bodrum","tag-humeyra","tag-kadir-inanir","tag-kemal-tahir","tag-kirik-bir-ask-hikayesi","tag-mavi-kanatlarinla-yalniz-benim-olsaydin","tag-mecnunu-cok-daglar","tag-onur-caymaz","tag-orhan-kemal","tag-oyku","tag-pastirma-yazi","tag-perisi-kacmis-yazilar","tag-seni-cok-ozledim","tag-siir"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/onurcaymaz.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/327","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/onurcaymaz.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/onurcaymaz.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/onurcaymaz.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2929"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/onurcaymaz.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=327"}],"version-history":[{"count":5,"href":"http:\/\/onurcaymaz.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/327\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":346,"href":"http:\/\/onurcaymaz.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/327\/revisions\/346"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/onurcaymaz.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/344"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/onurcaymaz.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=327"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/onurcaymaz.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=327"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/onurcaymaz.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=327"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}