{"id":240,"date":"2022-06-20T05:44:32","date_gmt":"2022-06-20T05:44:32","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/onurcaymaz.com\/?p=240"},"modified":"2022-06-20T05:45:19","modified_gmt":"2022-06-20T05:45:19","slug":"kanatli-at-destani","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/onurcaymaz.com\/index.php\/2022\/06\/20\/kanatli-at-destani\/","title":{"rendered":"kanatl\u0131 at destan\u0131"},"content":{"rendered":"\n


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gittik\u00e7e geni\u015fleyen o sonsuz evrene inan\u0131yorum
bu y\u00fczden uzakla\u015f\u0131yoruz ya birbirimizden, buna
ve her gece bir kere y\u00fcz\u00fcnden \u00f6p\u00fcyorum, sana;<\/p>\n\n\n\n

uzaya, atomlar\u0131n aras\u0131ndaki t\u00fckenmeyen bo\u015flu\u011fa
porselen vazolara, \u00e7i\u00e7eklerden kalan soluk suya
uyurken ok\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m sa\u00e7lara, yatakl\u0131 vagonlara;<\/p>\n\n\n\n

pencere kenarlar\u0131na, bombo\u015f yollara geceleyin
terk edilmi\u015f hayalet benzin istasyonlar\u0131na
kimsesiz barlardaki a\u00e7\u0131k klozet kapaklar\u0131na;<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00e7ocuk\u00e7a renklere, mesela mora, arkada\u015flar\u0131ma
hik\u00e2yeden romana ge\u00e7memi\u015f soylu yazarlara
suya inan\u0131yorum diyece\u011fim, su gibi aziz olmaya;<\/p>\n\n\n\n

erken b\u00fcy\u00fcmeye ve tabii ispanya i\u00e7 sava\u015f\u0131\u2019na
daha d\u00fcn annemizin hayallerini y\u0131karken
t\u0131\u011fa inan\u0131yorum, simli tu\u011fraya, cam k\u0131ran tu\u011flaya;<\/p>\n\n\n\n

bir yan\u0131ndan gittik\u00e7e b\u00fck\u00fclen \u00e7atlak dudaklara
ucu \u00f6p\u00fcl\u00fcrken biraz \u0131slanan g\u00f6\u011f\u00fcs u\u00e7lar\u0131na
iyice bast\u0131r\u0131nca tek elle a\u00e7\u0131lan sutyen kop\u00e7alar\u0131na;<\/p>\n\n\n\n

adres sordu\u011fum ter kokan otob\u00fcs \u015fof\u00f6rlerine
sobas\u0131z k\u0131\u015f gecelerine, hamamlar\u0131n gizli tarihine
\u00f6l\u00fc madencilere, ellerin gizine, zaman\u0131n bilgeli\u011fine;<\/p>\n\n\n\n

say\u0131s\u0131 nedense gittik\u00e7e azalan tanr\u0131 lekelerine
pamuk prenses\u2019in bekaretine, alice\u2019in esaretine
unutmadan s\u00f6yleyeyim, athena\u2019ya birka\u00e7 gece;<\/p>\n\n\n\n

denize inan\u0131yorum desem yeridir, dumana
densize, denemeye, dengeye, \u00fc\u00e7 ortal\u0131 defterlere
i\u00e7imdeki derg\u00e2ha do\u011fru, durmayana, dem\u2019e;<\/p>\n\n\n\n

gittik\u00e7e h\u0131zlanan evrime, telsizlere, telli arabalara
yollara, insan\u0131 bir \u015fehirden ba\u015fka \u015fehirlere ula\u015ft\u0131ran
kanatlar\u0131n g\u00fczelli\u011fine, aleve, otopark lambalar\u0131na;<\/p>\n\n\n\n

da\u011f\u0131n d\u00fcze yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u015fakaya, yaka \u00e7i\u00e7eklerine, hakikate
ku\u015f seslerine inan\u0131yorum, karl\u0131 da\u011fdan serin avlulara
sana diyorum a\u015fk hecesi, y\u00fcz\u00fcnden ge\u00e7en ac\u0131ya;<\/p>\n\n\n\n

e\u015fyan\u0131n elbisesi harflere, bo\u011fazl\u0131 kazaklara
diz \u00fcst\u00fc eteklere, su alt\u0131nda ormanlara
kad\u0131n bacaklar\u0131na, ya\u015fl\u0131 terzilere, orospulara;<\/p>\n\n\n\n

hi\u00e7bir \u015feye inan\u0131yorum, m\u0131knat\u0131slara, gecedeki y\u0131ld\u0131zlara
\u00e7engelli i\u011fnelere, \u0131\u015f\u0131klar\u0131 severim ama yine de karanl\u0131\u011fa
lokantalara, matemati\u011fin zalimli\u011fine, mant\u0131\u011f\u0131n cinayetine;<\/p>\n\n\n\n

veremdeki zarafete, depresyona, kahve makinelerine
delirme ihtimalime, ilk haritac\u0131lara, antik d\u00f6neme
\u00e7aresizli\u011fe, t\u00fckenmez dirili\u015fe, o k\u00f6r borges\u2019e;<\/p>\n\n\n\n

sinemalarda sekse, kasabalarda pis otellere
video kasetlere, pornoya, m\u00fcrekkepli kaleme
titremesine erkekli\u011fin, kad\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131n ke\u015ffedi\u015fine;<\/p>\n\n\n\n

yosun tutan meleklere, pastel boyaya, vapur tarifesine
baz\u0131 marketlerde ara s\u0131ra g\u00f6r\u00fclen de\u011fi\u015fik \u015feylere
geceleri bir kanatl\u0131 at olup s\u0131rt\u0131nda co\u015fan ellerime;<\/p>\n\n\n\n

s\u0131f\u0131ra, can s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131s\u0131na, sefaletin ziyafetine
eski t\u00fcrkiye\u2019ye, k\u00fct\u00fcphaneden cennete, bisiklete
ge\u00e7mi\u015fin \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcne, hen\u00fcz ya\u015fanmam\u0131\u015f saatlere;<\/p>\n\n\n\n

sakals\u0131zdan proust\u2019a inan\u0131yorum, sakall\u0131dan tolstoy\u2019a
i\u00e7ine do\u011fru a\u00e7an \u00e7i\u00e7ekleriyle incire, \u015faraba
\u015fefkate, keman \u00e7alabilenlere, nar\u0131n s\u0131rr\u0131na
ve kusura bakma, sana<\/p>\n\n\n\n

ve fakat inanm\u0131yorum allah\u2019a!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

gittik\u00e7e geni\u015fleyen o sonsuz evrene inan\u0131yorumbu y\u00fczden uzakla\u015f\u0131yoruz ya birbirimizden, bunave her gece bir kere y\u00fcz\u00fcnden \u00f6p\u00fcyorum, sana; uzaya, atomlar\u0131n aras\u0131ndaki t\u00fckenmeyen bo\u015flu\u011faporselen vazolara, \u00e7i\u00e7eklerden […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2929,"featured_media":242,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[3],"tags":[60,58,17],"class_list":["post-240","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-siir","tag-kanatli-at-destani","tag-pervaneyle-yaren","tag-siir"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/onurcaymaz.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/240","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/onurcaymaz.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/onurcaymaz.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/onurcaymaz.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2929"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/onurcaymaz.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=240"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/onurcaymaz.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/240\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":243,"href":"https:\/\/onurcaymaz.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/240\/revisions\/243"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/onurcaymaz.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/242"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/onurcaymaz.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=240"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/onurcaymaz.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=240"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/onurcaymaz.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=240"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}