{"id":286,"date":"2023-02-28T15:29:10","date_gmt":"2023-02-28T15:29:10","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/onurcaymaz.com\/?p=286"},"modified":"2023-02-28T15:31:05","modified_gmt":"2023-02-28T15:31:05","slug":"iskender","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/onurcaymaz.com\/index.php\/2023\/02\/28\/iskender\/","title":{"rendered":"ku\u0308c\u0327u\u0308k I\u0307skender, Bir S\u0327iiri Bitirdig\u0306inde\u2026"},"content":{"rendered":"\n

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dag\u0306lar c\u0327\u0131g\u0306l\u0131k c\u0327\u0131g\u0306l\u0131g\u0306ad\u0131r ka\u0302g\u0306\u0131d\u0131n\u0131 c\u0327\u0131kar\u0131nca daktilodan
son harflerini basarken patlar silah sat\u0131s\u0327lar\u0131 s\u0327ehirde
bilmedig\u0306im sokaklarda u\u0308nleme benzer karanl\u0131k adamlar
s\u0131rlar\u0131 var: o\u0308rgu\u0308tlenmis\u0327ler; kal\u0131n caml\u0131 kahverengi s\u0327is\u0327eler
bira c\u0327u\u0308ru\u0308g\u0306u\u0308 kerpeten, sog\u0306uk yald\u0131zl\u0131 c\u0327ekic\u0327 ve el bombas\u0131
derken fosforlu yelek cebinde turne kapsam\u0131nda bo\u0308cekler<\/p>\n\n\n\n

bitirirken bir s\u0327iiri I\u0307skender, \u0131s\u0327\u0131r s\u0327ehirde yat\u0131l\u0131 okul pencereleri
du\u0308nyan\u0131n tu\u0308m sular\u0131, ak\u0131p gitmek ic\u0327in dalgalan\u0131r dizelerinde,
dizler kan ic\u0327inde, dis\u0327lerde birkac\u0327 c\u0327u\u0308ru\u0308k, t\u0131rnaklar muntazam
go\u0308zlu\u0308k kullanmaz yazarken s\u0327ehrin Memed\u2019i, I\u0307nce I\u0307skender
deli okyanusta kaybolup gidecek beg\u0306enmeyip att\u0131g\u0306\u0131 k\u0131talar
c\u0327ocuklar\u0131n derisini yu\u0308zer, kad\u0131nlar\u0131n denizini, erkekler y\u0131ld\u0131r\u0131m
doru atlarla uc\u0327up fis\u0327ekler kus\u0327anarak inerken kahpe Pera\u2019ya
durur ha\u0302la\u0302, sondan iki o\u0308nceki o eski evinde kalan kasetler<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I\u0307skender, bir s\u0327iiri so\u0308ku\u0308p daktilonun ag\u0306z\u0131ndan tekrar okurken
bilet olarak kullan\u0131labilir cehenneme bu solgun pelu\u0308r ka\u0302g\u0306\u0131t
bas\u0327sag\u0306l\u0131g\u0306\u0131 telgraf\u0131, bar\u0131s\u0327 antlas\u0327mas\u0131 ya da tehdit mektubu
mu\u0308zelerin sessiz yerlerinde, tas\u0327lar aras\u0131nda los\u0327 k\u0131s\u0327 sabahlar\u0131
birbirinin dudaklar\u0131n\u0131 kanatarak o\u0308pu\u0308s\u0327en iki liselinin as\u0327k an\u0131t\u0131
eninde sonunda ka\u0302g\u0306\u0131tlar, her s\u0327ey bir ka\u0302g\u0306\u0131t olacakt\u0131r zaten
I\u0307skender\u2019dir, s\u0327air, hayat\u0131n orta yerine f\u0131rlat\u0131lm\u0131s\u0327 as\u0327k yan\u0131t\u0131<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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saatler bos\u0327a do\u0308nmez art\u0131k, otobu\u0308sler, tabii ki tam vaktinde
s\u0131cak yaz geceleri sevis\u0327mek ic\u0327in ter ic\u0327inde uyan\u0131p aniden
bir s\u0327iirini bitirirken I\u0307skender, elinde k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 kan kalemi
nisan sular\u0131nda hu\u0308lyal\u0131, genc\u0327 kap\u0131c\u0131 k\u0131zlar\u0131 ic\u0327indir son dizesi
Bayburt\u2019tan gec\u0327erken kokular c\u0327ocuk, C\u0327oruh bahar m\u0131 k\u0131s\u0327 m\u0131
\u0131rmakt\u0131r deli sevinc\u0327, donsam m\u0131 diye du\u0308s\u0327u\u0308nu\u0308r, tas\u0327sam m\u0131<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Derman I\u0307skender dizelerini karton yang\u0131n\u0131 dosyas\u0131nda saklarken
Ankara Caddesi\u2019nden Cag\u0306alog\u0306lu\u2019na dog\u0306ru, dergilere verecek
dumanl\u0131 korkunc\u0327 bir kar inecektir Erzurum\u2019dan o\u0308telere dog\u0306ru
Bams\u0131 Beyrek selam eder Hektor\u2019a, yolun \u0131ss\u0131z\u0131nda bir yerden
beyhude adalet, soyunur ovada, ag\u0306z\u0131ndaki b\u0131c\u0327akla, may\u0131st\u0131
s\u0327air herkesi bo\u0308yle bas\u0327lar bag\u0306\u0131s\u0327lamaya ve derken Kapal\u0131c\u0327ars\u0327\u0131<\/p>\n\n\n\n

c\u0327\u0131k\u0131p Gu\u0308lbag\u0306\u2019dan Mecidiyeko\u0308y\u2019e dog\u0306ru yokus\u0327u sabah 7.45\u2019te
kan aran\u0131yor anonslar\u0131 g\u0131c\u0131rt\u0131l\u0131, titrek dur ihtar\u0131, k\u0131lc\u0327\u0131kl\u0131 ruj izleri
biriktirenle biriktirilen kar\u0131s\u0327\u0131r otobu\u0308slerin yag\u0306l\u0131 penceresi o\u0308nu\u0308nde
s\u0327ehirde ha\u0302la\u0302 c\u0327ilek hos\u0327af\u0131 yapan kuytu lokantalar var I\u0307skender!
kar\u0131s\u0327\u0131yor birbirine, kar\u0131s\u0327\u0131yor es\u0327ya tabiata c\u0327o\u0308zu\u0308lu\u0308p cisminden
es\u0327ya, yak\u0131nl\u0131g\u0306\u0131n\u0131 sorgulamak zorunda kal\u0131yor tarafs\u0131z dog\u0306ayla
ay c\u0327o\u0308zu\u0308lu\u0308yor, an c\u0327o\u0308zu\u0308lu\u0308yor, ah c\u0327o\u0308zu\u0308lu\u0308yor ve ka\u0302inat paramparc\u0327a<\/p>\n\n\n\n

kopc\u0327alar c\u0327o\u0308zu\u0308lu\u0308yor durmadan, eller, parmak kemikleri, c\u0327ars\u0327aflar
s\u0327arap al\u0131r m\u0131s\u0131n diye sorarlar is\u0327e giderken, 7.45, bir kadeh Bourdaeux
ve al\u0131n kemig\u0306imdeki c\u0327atlaklar, kan revan, iskelelerde ter, bug\u0306u ic\u0327inde
sonra do\u0308nu\u0308s\u0327 yolu, son vapurlarda duydug\u0306um sanc\u0131 ve on dokuz yas\u0327\u0131m
Narmanl\u0131 Han giris\u0327inde tas\u0327 merdivende bira ic\u0327iyoruz kimi hayaletlerle
posta kutusunda edebiyat dergisi, 1996, ilk kez sen s\u0327iirini bitirirken
keklik besleyen deli kad\u0131n vard\u0131 avluda, kibrit alevinde ku\u0308l oldular
St Antuan\u2019\u0131n az o\u0308tesindeki muhallebiciyi yang\u0131nlar m\u0131yd\u0131 yok eden!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

ve sonra at yar\u0131s\u0327lar\u0131 ve plaklar ve caz mavisi Veli Bar\u2019\u0131n sokag\u0306\u0131nda
uzayda bir yerden uc\u0327up gelmis\u0327 kelebeg\u0306in dag\u0306\u0131l\u0131yor kristal kanatlar\u0131
bir sabah c\u0327ok erken, gu\u0308n henu\u0308z dog\u0306mus\u0327, c\u0327\u0131r\u0131lc\u0327\u0131plak, c\u0327amur, barikat
konserve kutular\u0131, o\u0308lu\u0308 kediler yaln\u0131zl\u0131g\u0306\u0131nda Ku\u0308rt bo\u0308rekc\u0327iler, fedai
Derman diyorlar sana, sana takvimler, uzun yaln\u0131z sen, bu\u0308yu\u0308k k\u0131r\u0131k
Derman I\u0307skender O\u0308ver, sen s\u0327iiri bitirirken kayd\u0131 du\u0308nyan\u0131n ekseni<\/p>\n\n\n\n

sana c\u0327ay; dinlenirsin biraz s\u0327air! fay demlesem, du\u0308s\u0327men ic\u0327in
bir s\u0327iiri bitirirken sen ola ki Amsterdam\u2019da barlar k\u0131pk\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131
tu\u0308tu\u0308n is\u0327c\u0327ilerini hat\u0131rlad\u0131n yazarken, yan\u0131k yerlerinde du\u0308nyan\u0131n
dinlenirsin biraz, otur, o\u0308l ve parc\u0327alan kayal\u0131klarda! ay demlesem
devrim bir ihtimal falan deg\u0306ildi, hic\u0327 olmad\u0131 zorgeneral I\u0307skender
Darmstadt\u2019da kilisenin o\u0308nu\u0308nde, ag\u0306\u0131r duman ic\u0327iyordu sakall\u0131lar
parktaki punk\u2019c\u0327\u0131 elemanlar\u0131n aras\u0131nda jiletli yu\u0308zler, kan c\u0327izikleri
kahvalt\u0131da jilet yer bunlar, o\u0308g\u0306len maket b\u0131c\u0327ag\u0306\u0131, aks\u0327am matkap
de gu\u0308lu\u0308m, yu\u0308zu\u0308mu\u0308zu\u0308 bereleyip ineriz du\u0308nyaya k\u0131s\u0327\u0131n biz de
yu\u0308zu\u0308n Edirne ayaz\u0131 Derman I\u0307skender, sen s\u0327iirini bitirdig\u0306inde<\/p>\n\n\n\n

sonra gelincik papatyaya bak\u0131p dudak bu\u0308zer, seninki beyaz m\u0131 der
Azra\u2019d\u0131r day\u0131 dayag\u0306\u0131ndan, mektuplar\u0131 yere f\u0131rlat\u0131r postane o\u0308nu\u0308nde
kombisi ac\u0327\u0131lmam\u0131s\u0327 odalar\u0131n duvarlar\u0131nda Che resimleri, Pink Floyd
hic\u0327 zaman kalmad\u0131 art\u0131k bak, madde tu\u0308kendi, mana bitti, sonu yolun
s\u0327air, bir sigara daha ic\u0327 de o\u0308yle kalk\u0131p b\u0131rak bizi ellerine bos\u0327lug\u0306un
savas\u0327 belgeselleri, kimlig\u0306i belirsiz hocalarla karate ve kes\u0327 kuafo\u0308rler
ve sana s\u0327iirini bitirdig\u0306inde bir tay demlesem, kos\u0327up ic\u0327men ic\u0327in
zaman kars\u0327\u0131s\u0131nda insan bit; bitler incisidir fukaral\u0131g\u0306\u0131n I\u0307skender<\/p>\n\n\n\n

gu\u0308cu\u0308m yok s\u0327iiri bitirecek, dursun, herkes gitti hep, sen de gittin
yes\u0327il ku\u0308l tablamda yok oldu I\u0307stanbul, biraz huy demlesem
Edip\u2019in o\u0308ldu\u0308g\u0306u\u0308 gu\u0308n dog\u0306an s\u0327air, Mad\u0131mak Katliam\u0131\u2019nda o\u0308len
hangi k\u0131taday\u0131z gece bas\u0327larken, nerede olumsuz, nas\u0131l bir mezar
meg\u0306er yaln\u0131zm\u0131s\u0327\u0131z, o\u0308zu\u0308r diliyormus\u0327 periler meg\u0306er ovada, meleksiz
herkesin herkesi sevis\u0327irken sona dog\u0306ru b\u0131c\u0327aklad\u0131g\u0306\u0131 c\u0327ag\u0306\u0131m\u0131zda
kahraman olmaya yeltenmis\u0327 ellerimiz varm\u0131s\u0327, ellerimiz son kis\u0327ot
Varl\u0131k\u2019ta falan deg\u0306il, Avrupa\u2019da festivaller falan, ne mu\u0308nasebet
bize genc\u0327 arkadas\u0327lar\u0131n, Mus\u0327\u2019ta bir u\u0308niversite kantininde u\u0308s\u0327u\u0308rken
fotokopiyle c\u0327\u0131kard\u0131g\u0306\u0131 fanzin gerek, daha c\u0327ok f\u0131rt\u0131na, daha bu\u0308yu\u0308k
bize eski zamanlardan bu yana kalm\u0131s\u0327, delice dimdik bir ho\u0308yu\u0308k<\/p>\n\n\n\n

batarken her yolcunun yu\u0308zu\u0308ne yu\u0308zu\u0308nu\u0308 deg\u0306dirmek isteyen kaptan
her yolcuyla oturup votka ic\u0327mek ic\u0327in c\u0327\u0131ld\u0131ran deli tayfa batarken
sayemde o\u0308lu\u0308me gidiyorsunuz diyen vapur! ne fena, k\u0131s\u0327 geliyor
sana biraz c\u0327ig\u0306 demlesem sabah\u0131n burus\u0327uk aln\u0131nda yanarak so\u0308nen
zarif kararlar var, bir mevsim daha biter birazdan s\u0327anl\u0131 I\u0307skender
c\u0327\u0131kar\u0131rken ka\u0302g\u0306\u0131d\u0131n\u0131 cebinden, koyarken kan ter ic\u0327inde c\u0327ekmeceye
masas\u0131nda c\u0327es\u0327it c\u0327es\u0327it b\u0131c\u0327ak, sigaralar, fularlar, baltalar ve ustura
o\u0308yle yaz\u0131l\u0131yordu c\u0327u\u0308nku\u0308 eskiden s\u0327iir, s\u0327imdiyse boktan bir c\u0327ete<\/p>\n\n\n\n

dag\u0306lar\u0131n dizleri titriyor, savas\u0327 hatlar\u0131 dayanm\u0131yor ve stepler
S\u0327ahkulu Sokak\u2019taki merdiven, Karako\u0308y\u2019de ku\u0308c\u0327u\u0308cu\u0308k aral\u0131k
I\u0307lhan eski Bizans\u2019ta ka\u0302hindi, Turgut k\u0131s\u0327las\u0131ndaki deli bu\u0308yu\u0308cu\u0308
sana gelince, ayr\u0131l\u0131klar\u0131 o\u0308g\u0306retmek ic\u0327in bize, derimizi yu\u0308zdu\u0308n
hat\u0131rlasana Frankfurt\u2019ta sabah, alkolsu\u0308z birayla dog\u0306arken gu\u0308n
s\u0327\u0131k giyinmek gerekliydi diye du\u0308s\u0327u\u0308nmu\u0308s\u0327tu\u0308m, katiller iyi giyinir
ilk kez o\u0308pu\u0308s\u0327u\u0308r gibi bir kad\u0131nla, c\u0327u\u0308ru\u0308mu\u0308s\u0327 vis\u0327neler, ah I\u0307skender
en bu\u0308yu\u0308k zorgenaral, sana biraz\u2026 sana biraz\u2026 konus\u0327sana
bilemiyorum ki nas\u0131l, nedir, ne zaman devrilip gitti bunlar
bitirmeye art\u0131k gu\u0308cu\u0308m yok s\u0327iiri falan, hepiniz gittiniz, hep
Ferhan abi, Leyla abla, can\u0131m Erhan Bozkurt, kalbim ve sen
s\u0327u s\u0327iir bitince, yani biterse, kalk\u0131p sana biraz hu\u0302 demlesem!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Eyl\u00fcl – Kas\u0131m 2022<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

dag\u0306lar c\u0327\u0131g\u0306l\u0131k c\u0327\u0131g\u0306l\u0131g\u0306ad\u0131r ka\u0302g\u0306\u0131d\u0131n\u0131 c\u0327\u0131kar\u0131nca daktilodanson harflerini basarken patlar silah sat\u0131s\u0327lar\u0131 s\u0327ehirdebilmedig\u0306im sokaklarda u\u0308nleme benzer karanl\u0131k adamlars\u0131rlar\u0131 var: o\u0308rgu\u0308tlenmis\u0327ler; kal\u0131n caml\u0131 kahverengi s\u0327is\u0327elerbira c\u0327u\u0308ru\u0308g\u0306u\u0308 kerpeten, […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2929,"featured_media":291,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[3],"tags":[104,103,105,102,85,100],"class_list":["post-286","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-siir","tag-beyoglu","tag-gulbag","tag-kapalicarsi","tag-mecidiyekoy","tag-narmanli","tag-veli-bar"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/onurcaymaz.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/286","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/onurcaymaz.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/onurcaymaz.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/onurcaymaz.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2929"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/onurcaymaz.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=286"}],"version-history":[{"count":5,"href":"https:\/\/onurcaymaz.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/286\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":293,"href":"https:\/\/onurcaymaz.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/286\/revisions\/293"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/onurcaymaz.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/291"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/onurcaymaz.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=286"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/onurcaymaz.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=286"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/onurcaymaz.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=286"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}